You are a chosen [woman], a royal [priest], a holy [daughter], God’s special possession, that you may declare the praises of him who called you out of the darkness into his wonderful light.
1 Peter 2:9
I stood in front of my bathroom mirror, getting ready to travel to a large event while begging God to zap me withconfidence—or send Jesus back before it was time for me to speak. I had been struggling with paralyzing self-doubt that week and it was making me question everything. When I turned to put something in my suitcase, which was behind me, I noticed a huge nine-foot shadow on the wall. I was surprised how big the shadow was and how much it distorted the image of my five-foot-two-inch frame. In that moment, I realized my uncertainty had also created a huge shadow—a shadow of doubt that was distorting my thoughts and overpowering my emotions.
As I stood there looking at that humongous shadow, I sensed God telling me I could only see the shadow because I had turnedaway from the light. Slowly I turned back toward the light above the mirror, and I wasno longer standing in the shadow. But the fact that I had created the shadow by blocking the light taught me a powerful lesson—a truth that became a turning point for me.
Shadows are created all around us whenever something blocks the light. And so it is with the shadow of doubt. When we focus on how inadequate we feel, or what others are thinking about us, we cast a shadow of doubt in our minds by blocking the light of God’s truth in our hearts.
Yet we were not designed to block the light or to be the light. We were created to live in the light, by finding our confidence inwhat God thinks about us. Before that day in my bathroom with God and my shadow, Isaw doubt as an annoying weakness, a lapse of faith, a dip in my self-confidence. And I just wanted God to take it away. But through my doubt, God led me to dependence on Him and taught me a powerful lesson that became a turning point in my life.
A shadow of self-doubt had been cast over my thoughts and emotions when I turned my attention away from God’s perspective and promises. By taking my eyes o/ the light of God’s truth, I ended up paralyzed by the darkness of defeat. How about you? How often do you agree with the whispers of doubt and find yourself living in discouragement and uncertainty? That day in my bathroom was a turning point where God equipped me with a powerful way to process and conquer selfdoubts. And, as we take this sixty-day journey together, I want each day to be a turning point for you . . .
- As you turn toward God, so you can know who He is and His heart toward you.
- As you turn toward His truth, so you can listen to what God says about you and what He can do through you as you learn to depend more on Him.
- As you turn toward the light of God’s promises as a woman,a friend, a leader, and a follower of Jesus—so your life can be about living, loving, and leading others to the light of God’s truth as you walk it out in your everyday life.
When we turn our focus away from feelings of inadequacy anduncertainty and intentionally turn our thoughts toward God’s promises of all-su]ciency, we create a turning point and we begin to replace our wavering self-confidence with lasting God-confidence. In doing so, our lives become a response to the One who has called us out of darkness into His wonderful light (1 Pet. 2:9).
So, are you ready to start turning? Lord, I want to take Your hand and trust Your heart as Youlead me on this sixty-day journey of overcoming self-doubt and living in the power of Your promises! You say I am a chosen woman and a holy daughter who belongs to You. If doubt overshadows my thoughts today, help me turn back to the light of Your truth, so I can focus on all I have in You. In Jesus’ name, Amen.
When I say: My doubts won’t go away.
God says: I am calling you out of the darkness. Turn toward the light and truth of what I say about you. You are a chosen [woman], a royal [priest], a holy [daughter], God’s special possession, that you may declare the praises of him who called you out of the darkness into his wonderful light. (1 Pet. 2:9)